The Power of Love

Growing up, I never really had a great connection with my family. I have seen all of them talk negative about each other and continue to smile in each other’s faces like everything is OK. It’s been this way since I was younger; as I got older I started to notice all the negative energy around me, so I stopped talking to almost everyone in my family. I tried talking to my mom about things, but she never listens. She likes to think she’s always right. When I came to high school, I started using friends to help me express my thoughts and feelings, but people grow apart, so I eventually stopped talking to them too.

I always thought to myself, “How could people say they love you, but talk so negative about each you?” I didn’t believe that could be love, so I felt unloved by them. They are my family and I will always have some type of love for them, but when they are constantly bringing me down, I will have to learn to love them from a distance so I am able to focus on myself and move forward with my life.

Sometimes real love isn’t even found in family. A loved one will stick by your side no matter what. That person will show you that he/she cares; and will make you laugh in moments you don’t even feel like smiling. If someone can make you feel like everyone else in your life was worth losing, and bring you complete happiness with just them then that is when you know someone truly loves you.

This year I am repeating my senior year and trying to graduate mid-term. The first day of school, I felt stupid coming back because my family judged me for it, so of course everyone else was going to, and that’s exactly what they did. I didn’t want to stay; I wanted to give up. When I got home, I knew I couldn’t talk to my mom about it because all she’d do is say it’s my fault anyway.

There’s this boy I met almost three years ago. We recently started dating nine months ago. He has always been there when I needed him the most. He texted me and asked me how my day was at school, so I told him how I felt about everything. The next day he surprised me and came up to the school during lunch and sat and talked with me and then walked me to fourth period. He offered to help me study and is pushing me to graduate this semester. Instead of bring me down, he tries to motivate me. My boyfriend is the highlight of my days. He can say something as simple as “Hi” and I will feel so much better. He makes me feel wanted. This, I believe, is the power of love.